When I started this blog almost a year ago, I had every single intention of posting at least weekly. That clearly wasn’t the case, and after only 3 posts I took a “break”. I saw the big picture, the goal, of what I want(ed) this blog to be, and quickly became uninspired once it didn’t catch on as quickly as I had hoped/thought it would.
This was my fault for several reasons:
- My expectations far exceeded any possible realistic outcome over such a short time span. This is something that needs to grow and develop, and that takes a lot more than just 3 posts and 1 month’s time especially when you’re starting from nothing.
- I lost my voice. This blog was supposed to be a place to share my thoughts and ideas about something that I’ve been passionate about my entire life. It was supposed to be fun! Instead, I tried to turn it into a way to showcase myself professionally. I was miserable at my retail job and wanted to portray myself as an extremely valuable asset worthy of a chance to prove myself in the sport industry. I felt the need for this to be perfect, and I over analyzed and over thought every single aspect. This created a conflict and made blogging no longer fun or interesting to me. I lost what I wanted this to be.
- I lacked the confidence to post my blogs. The thought of posting something boring, a wrong fact, or an out of date concept/idea was embarrassing to me, and I was too afraid to publish anything. I second guessed everything. I was writing this for others and not for myself, and that is where I went wrong.
Less than five people will probably end up reading this, and that’s fine. But this felt like a much needed explanation and necessary transition into starting this blog again. I am doing this for myself, because I enjoy it. And although I hope others see and enjoy this, I’m perfectly content if they don’t.
If I post something that you don’t agree with or if I post something that is incorrect/inaccurate, please enlighten me. Let’s have a conversation about it. You can only grow and become better from learning, and I see my failed first attempt as a great learning experience. Thanks for understanding!